Running Code 3

1. I am so much more than 25 things.

2.  I consider myself anti-social.  I choose to spend the majority of my time at home with my family in the comfort of my own home, rather than out and about in society.  I don’t like to be around a lot of people – it freaks me out to feel obligated to hold conversations with people and try and think of things to say.

3.  I’m not much of a talker.  If I don’t speak to you, it’s not that I don’t want to or that I’m trying to be rude, it’s just that I am not verbal.  Sometimes I believe that the world would be a better place if people kept their mouths shut and just wrote.  I am a true believer in the power of the written word and I am BIG on snail mail.  I wear my iPod with my earbuds plugged into my ears when I am alone in public so as not to have conversations with people (i.e. when I’m at the gym).  I also would rather text than talk.

4.  My true best friend is a beautiful girl who looks VERY similar to me.  Her name Joanie and she has been my friend since the very first day of 8th grade. I love my Joanie truly, madly, deeply!!!

5.  I went through a very dark period of life that lasted a very long, long, LONG time that I never thought would end.  It took me a long time to see the light at the end of the tunnel because I never believed it was an out – I thought it was a train coming at me so I ran in the other direction!

6.  My Mini Cooper was an obnoxious birthday request on my part never believing that anyone could find a “Blue Mini Cooper with a black roof, and grey seats” on short notice, or that my husband would take me seriously.  He found my requested Mini and presented it to me with a big red bow and all! ; )  Goes to show you, be careful what you ask for … However, I loooooove my Mini!!!

7.  I was a geeky kid growing up.  Very “Plain Jane.”  I had a mother who led me to believe that I was not beautiful or worth a damn thing.  I never believed it either until I was about 27 years old.

8. My first suicidal attempt was when I was 8 years old.  I really wanted to die.

9.  It was because I was told that I would never amount to anything that I am as successful as I am today.  I was too scared to not succeed.  I honestly wanted to prove those idiots who believed that I would never make it that I would … that they were f’n WRONG!

10.  Exercise is my drug of choice.  I do not function well if I don’t get a good workout – I love the endorphin rush. They do say that exercise is for those that cannot handle drugs or alcohol. I believe that whole heartedly.

11.  I do not have the enzyme to properly breakdown alcohol in my body. Don’t ask me how I know, I just know.

12.  I may look and act strong on the surface, but not all the way through.  Never mind that I have a black belt in Krav Maga, and am strong and love to hit and kick.

13.  I don’t like to cuss, but when I’m stressed I start to sound like a sailor!  And when I’m nervous, I talk … a lot!

14.  I can swim, but once my feet can’t feel the bottom of the ocean or the pool, I start to freak out, panic, and feel as if I am drowning!  If there was a triathlon in which I could swim in 3 feet of water I’d be fine.  Or if I could swim with floaties on …  This is somewhat amusing for a girl who grew up on the Island of Oahu!

15.  I have kept a journal since I was about 8 years old.  I’m a writer.  I love the movement of my pen over paper.  I love my handwriting also.  I love books.  I have a whole house FULL.  I can hardly bear to part with them, even though I know that I should just go to the library and save my money … I’d be a gazillionaire if I could stay away from Barnes and Noble and similar bookstores.

16.  I always believe that I am exactly where I am supposed to be, experiencing exactly what I am supposed to be experiencing.  I believe that I am who I am supposed to be, and that I am with the people that I am supposed to be with.

17.  I trust very few people.  I know who my “real” friends are and who I can trust, but even then I don’t divulge the “real” me.  I only let you see what I want you to see, and I hold most people at arm’s length.

18.  I don’t cry.  I am NOT a cry baby.  Only a handful of people have seen me cry.  I only cry when I throughly exhaused and frustrated, not because I am emotional.  I believe that crying is a form of manipulation, so if you are crying and I don’t console you, it’s probably because I don’t believe you …

19.  I believe that all women should be strong and self-sufficient and independent, rather than meek and dependent.

20.  I know who I am, who I’m not, who I want to be.  I know what I want, and will work hard to achieve my dreams and goals, or to get what it is that I am after.

21.  I believe in God and all that is good.  I can usually see the brighter side of things and remain positive.

22. I am a fat-phobe, although I believe that there is a fat person inside me desperately attempting to claw it’s way out. I am disgusted when I feel myself getting “soft” and I am afraid of things going “south.” I am OCD about working out. I exercise so that I can feed myself pastries … heeheehee. (Only half kidding.)

23. Despite my two Bachelor’s Degrees (one in Nursing and the other in Business), I believe that I am somewhat of a blonde underneath my brunette … a Reese Whitherspoon kind of blonde though.

24. I believe that I have the best husband in the world. He works hard at our relationship and really has been the one of the very few to show me that I AM worth something, and that I AM someone. He has never been afraid to tell me what I need to hear, but also what I want to hear. He has loved me unconditionally despite my OCD, my irrationalities, my imperfections, my faults, etc. He’s also a great father to our kiddos, and has always … ALWAYS put us first. Our relationship is far from perfect, but show me a relationship that is …

25. I have four true loves that come in the form of Mini Row’s … Samuel, Nathan, Noah, and Grace.  I love my children dearly.  They are definately the best part of Me and I would do anything for them.  They’re great kids and I couldn’t have asked for better.  You mess with them and I’ll show you a force to be reckoned with!!!